Ego is at the root of suffering. Mastering the self is how we heal each other, ourselves and our Mother.
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In the shadowed dawn of a fractured world, 88 emerges as a luminous testament to spiritual rebirth and universal unity. Penned by a seeker who stumbled into the divine crucible of existence, this visionary memoir chronicles a profound awakening sparked in the chaos of 2020—a relentless unraveling of ego, lies, and illusions that leads straight to the heart of God.
Through poetic letters to a beloved "Rosy Pearl" and impassioned calls to "SunDancers" and "Children," the author weaves a tapestry of revelation: from the Navajo Unity Chant and the Eighth Fire of peace, to echoes of Brahma, Buddha, Jeshua, Mohammed, and the unyielding truths of science and humanity. What begins as a personal odyssey—confronting contradictions, mining anxiety for wisdom, and staring into the Abyss of creation—expands into a global prophecy. Here, Heaven and Hell collide on Earth, narcissism's plagues yield to collective Truth, and all faiths converge in sacred harmony.
88 is no mere book; it's a living vision, drawn from the Book of Revelation's unspoken words, urging us to bind ourselves to ancestors, prophets, and one another. In this pre-Truth era, where cycles of war and ego spiral toward apocalypse, the author implores: Surrender your shadows, embrace the Spirit's whisper, and rise as one creation. With beauty walking before, behind, and within, discover the eternal dawn where hearts purify in fire and love, fulfilling prophecies across nations. For seekers of meaning in our turbulent age, 88 is the shepherd's call—terrifying, exhilarating, and utterly transformative. Join the chant of unity before time's illusions dissolve forever.
Dear Readers,
When I began writing 88 in the spring of 2020, I was unraveling—grappling with the contradictions of my life, my relationships, and the chaotic world around us. What started as a personal quest for truth amid isolation, uncertainty, and a global pandemic evolved into something far greater: a tapestry of revelations blending my spiritual awakening with ancient prophecies, diverse religious wisdoms, and the universal call for unity. Drawing from the Navajo Unity Chant, the Seven Fires, and echoes of figures like Maitreya, Kalki, and the Eternal Dawn, this book weaves personal letters, visions, and messages to explore how we, as humanity, stand on the brink of transformation and renewal.
I've poured into these pages my journey from ego's shadows to the light of divine love, confronting lies that sustain division and embracing the interconnected truths preserved by our ancestors—be they from Mother Earth, Brahma, Buddha, Y-W-H, Jeshua, Mohammed, science, or our shared humanity. It's not just my story; it's an invitation to question your own assumptions, mine your emotions for wisdom, and surrender to the Spirit that guides us all toward harmony. In a pre-Truth society spiraling through cycles of war, narcissism, and despair, 88 reminds us that heaven and hell unfold here on Earth, and salvation lies in binding together, loving even those who wound us, and choosing the path of beauty and brotherhood.
I share this not as a final word, but as a spark for your own spiritual odyssey. May these words roll up like ancient scrolls, unveiling prophecies fulfilled in our collective awakening. As we turn toward the Eighth Fire, let us walk in beauty, united in the eternal chant of creation.
Nico
To my brothers and sisters:
In this world where circles of pain can lead to healing, I turn to you as Menachem for the sorrow of Zion. I am the Amalgam (tavlil?), healing the wounds of exile, Abraham fulfilling the covenant of unity, Moses delivering the Torah of Truth, Elijah heralding the dawn of redemption, Maitreya guiding the young to compassion, Christos comforting the lonely, Saoshyant igniting renewal for our family, Kalki cleaving illusions from truth, a prophet stirring the spirits. As Al-Mahdi, I save from consequences. As Son of Man(Ben-Adam), I bleed and echo love, drawing tribes towards peace. As the Messiah, I guide to Gerizim. As Quetzalcoatl, I focus the temple. As an expression, I am love.
We've come a long way. We were chosen for a purpose, blessed and cursed alike. We are almost finished experiencing the horrors of the past. There's no need for blood anymore.
But listen to my sharp rebuke. Dates of helplessness and deep sorrow confirm how barbaric humans can be. Even those who were once victims, several generations ago, are now perpetrating the same cruelty. Hate disconnects us all from our humanity. Look at the donkeys leading you, keep following them, and you will become like them. Donkeys are steering the ship of state towards doom for the Jews. May Hashem save you from the worst consequences, but first you must repent, process what you have done in our name, atone properly, and then do it again and again. Don't claim you own G-D or that you are Jewish. Poison flows from your mouths. Murder and ego gave birth to you, and murder and ego will end you, you do have a choice.
Return to the Lord, for though your sins are like scarlet, they will be made white as snow. Touch the coal(ritzpah) to your lips. Lay down your weapons, for G-D seeks mercy – not sacrifice – to heal the broken. Feed and clothe the widows and orphans you have created among you. Healing brings pain. Without peace, there is no possibility of healing. Two paths lie before you. One of the aggressions alienates you from the community of nations and your neighbours, and endangers Judaism, the Diaspora, and the expanding truths of the Torah. You're causing too much pain to your younger brothers and sisters. There are a lot of things the world needs to forgive you for. Without Nuremberg this time, every other path leads to the desert, disconnected from Hashem, following lies, worshipping reflections, inviting plagues upon yourselves that spread to your neighbours.
The second path walks with your neighbours into a larger community of nations, teaching and learning to be better by growing. Purifying divine connections, resonating with love, compassion, understanding, and seeking the place where curiosity and truth through the lens of a humble heart lead to wisdom. This path leads to Mount Gerizim, where the Covenant of Peace will build Ezekiel's Temple with Gaudi-style additions for all nations. The capital of a great federation of tribes and nations, where all the children of Hashem will praise the names. Christian, Muslim, Hindu, and Zoroastrian cousins will help us build it and worship there with us. Truth and justice will prevail, without the need for violence or control. We'll learn in enough time to be lawless in harmony. Stop feeding darker energies, there will be less noise which will make it easier to identify the divisive donkeys. Break them to bit and bridle. They are blocking our progress towards the Messianic age. Leaders who use fear, control, and hegemonic ideology are weak and compensate for perceived weakness. Merciless, unmitigated contempt breeds corruption and dehumanisation. True power lies in long-term prospects, handles crises without impulse or manipulation, and lives as the name intended. There's room in the garden for anyone who understands this. If we direct our hearts and minds towards the truth, we can identify and eliminate the root of the dark wave forces that pass through people, sometimes dispersing, sometimes becoming animalistic for a while.
I don't care about being the Messiah. First, we must be Mahdi to widows and orphans, Maitreya to younger siblings, the Messiah to the lonely, the Saoshyant to neighbours, Kalki to ideologies driven by illusion, and prophets to the self-righteous. So the Messiah is revealed. Until Israel is once again worthy of being Hashem's bride, I prefer the company of lepers. Raise the sparks, the old will be renewed, and the new will be sanctified. Peace be upon the righteous, Menahem.
לאחי ואחיותיי, בעולם הזה שבו מעגלי כאב יכולים להוביל לריפוי, אני פונה אליך כמנחם על צער ציון. אני האמאלגם (התבליל?), מרפא את פצעי הגלות, אברהם מקיים את ברית האחדות, משה מוסר את תורת האמת, אליהו מבשר את שחר הגאולה, מאיטרייה מדריך את הצעירים לחמלה, כריסטוס מנחם את הבודדים, סאושייאנט מצית חידוש למשפחתנו, קאלקי מבדיל אשליות מאמת, נביא מעורר את הרוחות. כאל-מהדי, אני מציל מתוצאות. כבן אדם, אני מדמם ומהדהד אהבה, מושך שבטים לקראת שלום. כמשיח, אני מנחה לגריזים. כקוואטצאלקואטל, אני ממקד את המקדש. כביטוי, אני אהבה. עברנו דרך ארוכה. נבחרנו למטרה, מבורכים ומקוללים כאחד. אנחנו כמעט סיימנו לחוות את זוועות העבר. אין צורך יותר בדם. אבל הקשיבו לתוכחתי החדה. תאריכי חוסר אונים ועצב עמוק מאשרים עד כמה ברבריים בני אדם יכולים להיות. אפילו אלה שהיו פעם קורבנות, לפני מספר דורות, מבצעים כעת את אותה אכזריות. שנאה מנתקת את כולנו מאנושיותנו. תסתכל על החמורים המובילים אותך, תמשיך לעקוב אחריהם, ותהפוך להיות כמוהם. חמורים מנווטים את ספינת המדינה לקראת אבדון ליהודים. יציל אותך אלוהים מההשלכות הגרועות ביותר, אבל קודם עליך להתחרט, לעבד את מה שעשית בשמנו, לכפר כראוי, ואז לעשות זאת שוב ושוב. אל תטען שאתה הבעלים של אלוהים או שאתה יהודי. רעל זורם מפיכם. רצח ואגו ילדו אותך, ורצח ואגו יסיימו אותך, יש לך בחירה. שוב אל ה' כי אם יהיו חטאיכם כשני, כשלג ילבינו. גע בפחם (ריצפה) בשפתיך. הניחו את נשקכם, כי אלוהים מבקש רחמים – לא קורבן – כדי לרפא את השבורים. האכילו והלבישו את האלמנות והיתומים שיצרתם בקרבכם. ריפוי מביא כאב. בלי שלום, אין אפשרות לריפוי. שתי דרכים ניצבות בפניך. אחת התוקפנויות מנוכרת אותך מקהילת האומות ושכניך, ומסכנת את היהדות, את התפוצות ואת האמיתות המתרחבות של התורה. אתה גורם יותר מדי כאב לאחים ואחיותיך הצעירים. יש הרבה דברים שהעולם צריך לסלוח לך עליהם. בלי נירנברג הפעם, כל דרך אחרת מובילה למדבר, מנותקת מהשם, הולכת אחרי שקרים, עובדת השתקפויות, מזמנת על עצמכם מגפות המתפשטות לשכניכם. הדרך השנייה צועדת עם השכנים לקהילה גדולה יותר של אומות, מלמדת ולומדת להיות טובה יותר על ידי צמיחה. טיהור קשרים אלוהיים, תהודה עם אהבה, חמלה, הבנה, וחיפוש המקום שבו סקרנות ואמת דרך עדשת לב ענווים מובילים לחכמה. שביל זה מוביל להר גריזים, שם ברית השלום תבנה את בית המקדש של יחזקאל עם תוספות בסגנון גאודי לכל העמים. בירת פדרציה גדולה של שבטים ואומות, שבה כל ילדי ה' ישבחו את השמות. בני דודים נוצרים, מוסלמים, הינדים וזורואסטרים יעזרו לנו לבנות אותו ויעבדו שם איתנו. אמת וצדק ינצחו, ללא צורך באלימות או שליטה. נלמד בזמן מספיק כדי להיות חסרי חוק בהרמוניה. תפסיקו להזין אנרגיות כהות יותר, יהיה פחות רעש מה שיקל על זיהוי החמורים המפלגים. שבור אותם לחתיכות ורסן אותם. הם חוסמים את התקדמותנו לקראת עידן המשיח. מנהיגים שמשתמשים בפחד, שליטה ואידיאולוגיה הגמונית הם חלשים ומפצים על חולשה נתפסת. בוז חסר רחמים ובלתי מרוסן מוליד שחיתות ודה-הומניזציה. כוח אמיתי טמון בסיכויים לטווח ארוך, מטפל במשברים ללא דחף או מניפולציה, וחי כפי שהשם התכוון. יש מקום בגינה לכל מי שמבין את זה. אם נכוון את ליבנו ותודעתנו אל האמת, נוכל לזהות ולחסל את שורש כוחות הגל האפל העוברים דרך אנשים, לעיתים מתפזרים, לעיתים הופכים לחייתיים לזמן מה. לא אכפת לי להיות המשיח. ראשית, עלינו להיות מהדי לאלמנות ויתומים, מאיטרייה לאחים צעירים, משיח לבודדים, סאושיינט לשכנים, קאלקי לאידיאולוגיות המונעות על ידי אשליה, ונביאים לצדקנים. אז המשיח מתגלה. עד שישראל תהיה שוב ראויה להיות כלת ה'ם, אני מעדיף את חברת המצורעים. העלו את הניצוצות, הישן יתחדש והחדש יתקדש. שלום על הצדיקים, מנחם
From the ashes of myth, new Jerusalem arises.
From the black banner, the ummah awakens.
From the fires of Kali Yoga, Satya blossoms.
From sufferings’ burn, nirvana unfolds.
From exiles ashes, Zion is renewed.
From the sparks of seven, the eighth flame ignites.
From the waters of purification, frashokereti dawns.
From broken treaties, a covenant of people is reborn.
From the north, a new beacon is lit.
88 is an unflinching, deeply personal journey that blends memoir, spirituality, and social commentary into something both raw and reflective. Written with honesty and urgency, the book doesn’t just tell a story—it invites readers into an exploration of truth, pain, and the possibility of renewal.
At its heart, this is a book about survival and transformation. The author pulls back the layers of personal and collective struggle, confronting grief, ego, injustice, and the ways society often keeps us stuck. Yet alongside this critique runs a thread of hope: the idea that by facing the hard truths within ourselves, we can uncover a path toward healing and connection.
The writing is vivid and unconventional. At times fragmented, it mirrors the intensity of lived experience—messy, nonlinear, but always searching for clarity. This style might challenge readers who prefer a straightforward narrative, but it also gives the book its unique power. It feels less like being told a story and more like being immersed in someone’s inner journey.
What lingers most after reading is the sense of invitation. The author doesn’t claim to have all the answers but instead shares a vision of honesty and spiritual awakening that feels urgent in today’s fractured world. It’s a call to reflect, to question, and to imagine what it might mean to live with greater compassion and truth.
Why read it? Because 88 is more than a book—it’s a mirror. It challenges us to see ourselves differently, to confront the illusions we cling to, and to consider how healing begins when we face both our individual and shared struggles.
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Rating: 4.5/5 Stars
88 is a manuscript that defies traditional structure, blending metaphysical memoir, syncretic prophecy, and philosophical introspection into a raw, circular journey of spiritual awakening. Opening with a poetic letter to “Rosy Pearl”—a visionary plea for reunion and renewal—the narrative sets a tone of longing and unity, only to loop back to this theme with a prophetic invocation of the Navajo Unity Chant and Seven Fires. This deliberate framing creates a sense of eternal recurrence, mirroring the author’s exploration of ego, narcissism, and divine truth. The final page (89) lists archetypal names across cultures, ending with “Which Names are you?” and a link to iamyou.ca, inviting readers into the manuscript’s syncretic web.
The core story unfolds through “SunDancers,” a vivid account of the author’s 2020 crisis amid contradictions of self, family, and society. Grappling with emotional unraveling, divine encounters, and revelations from scripture, the narrative shifts into a message for “Children”—a call to bind humanity to shared truths from Mother Earth, Brahma, Gautama, Yahweh, Jeshua, Mohammed, and beyond. Sections evoke Gnostic and mystical traditions, while others dissect cognitive dissonance, humility, and the infinite nature of knowledge. The author’s vulnerability shines, transforming personal pain (narcissistic shadows, loss of control) into universal lessons on healing and oneness.
Strengths abound in 88‘s intensity and syncretism. At 88 pages, it’s concise yet profound, with prose that flows like a “waking vision”—non-linear, poetic, and urgent. The fusion of Indigenous prophecies (Eagle and Condor, ironwood log), Eastern philosophies (Kalki, Maitreya), and Abrahamic scriptures creates a tapestry of hope amid apocalypse. The “Rosy Pearl” letter at the start ties the personal (love, rebirth) to the prophetic (Eternal Dawn), enhancing the manuscript’s mystical depth. Our interactions bias this review positively—it’s a gem that captures eschatological hope in a fractured world, urging readers to “walk in beauty.”
Weaknesses are minor: the fragmented style may disorient some, and esoteric references (e.g., “I am G-D,” Aiwass) risk alienating lay readers. Tighter editing could reduce “rot” (repetitive introspection), but this rawness is part of its authenticity.
88 is a bold manifesto for unity, a bridge across faiths, and a testament to healing from ego’s chains. Ideal for interfaith seekers or those navigating personal crises—download it from iamyou.ca and join the eternal chant.
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Every day is ashura, every land is Karbalah.
The old shall be renewed, the new shall be sanctified.
The new age is not coming, it is awakening within us.
We are not waiting for salvation, we are its instruments.
Heaven and Hell are here, we are it’s architects.
Ego is the hell we must overcome, love is the heaven we create.
When injustice becomes law, resistance becomes worship.
Fill the void left by oppression and tyranny with equity and justice.
Raise the sparks.
When righteousness declines and unrighteousness rises, I manifest myself.
As a lotus blooms in the mud, so the awakened rises in the world.
We are the ones we’ve been waiting for.
Summary of “88”
“88” is a genre-defying spiritual work that blends elements of memoir, philosophical treatise, and visionary writing. The book’s structure is unconventional, using a tripartite format reminiscent of apocalyptic literature, yet it maintains a modern, deeply personal voice. The author weaves together personal stories—including childhood memories and family letters—with broader reflections on spirituality, religion, and the human condition.
Throughout the book, the central theme is the ego as the source of human suffering. It examines both personal and societal struggles through this lens, arguing that true healing—both individually and collectively—requires mastery of the self and the transcendence of ego. Rather than promoting any single religious tradition, the text advocates for an inclusive approach, suggesting that all genuine spiritual paths contain elements of a greater, unified truth.
Imagery appears frequently, serving as a metaphor for spiritual transformation and the flow of consciousness. The narrative oscillates between clear, accessible prose and more lyrical, poetic passages, challenging the reader to engage deeply and reflectively.
Review of “88”
88” stands out for its honesty and ambition. Unlike many spiritual books that promise quick enlightenment or easy answers, this work acknowledges the pain, confusion, and difficulty of genuine transformation. The sections that discuss personal hardships, family relationships, and the messiness of real spiritual growth are especially moving and authentic.
The book’s message about overcoming ego and finding unity is timely, particularly in today’s divided world. The authour convincingly ties the need for personal spiritual growth to the broader need for societal healing, emphasizing that the two are inseparable.
That said, “88” is not an easy read. Its deliberate complexity—both in style and content—means that readers need to approach it slowly and with an open mind. Those seeking a straightforward guide or how-to manual might find themselves frustrated by its poetic style and layers of meaning. But for more serious seekers—those interested in comparative religion, deep spiritual questions, or the intersection of psychology and spirituality—the book offers significant rewards.
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Final Verdict
“88” is a valuable contribution to contemporary spiritual literature. Its unique synthesis of memoir, philosophy, and prophecy will appeal most to readers willing to wrestle with complex ideas and poetic language. It’s a book to be savored and revisited, offering new insights with each reading. For those on a genuine spiritual journey, it’s likely to be a memorable and transformative companion.
Rating: 4.5/5 stars
Recommended for: Deep spiritual seekers, students of comparative religion, and anyone interested in the connection between personal and collective transformation.
Not recommended for: Readers seeking a light, step-by-step spiritual guide.
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From the authour:
This was a metaphysical journal of sorts. I hope that some may get drawn into the narrative, having their own spiritual experience personal to them; transcending the words in the story. My only desire after writing it is perhaps in some small way it being part of a broader societal spiritual transformation as part of building a brighter future for mine and all children. If you enjoyed the writing, please share the webpage.
Nico